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Saturday, June 09, 2007


man... came back from a tough two days of DES student ambassador training. tiring and stress. now i know why the cca has a 80% drop-out rate. let me give you a brief idea of what the camp was like.

on the first day, sometime in the afternoon they got some graduate who was from SA to come back and give us some "random tekang", meaning he came back for the purpose of stressing us out through interview. imagine that. and second day, which i just returned home from 40 minutes ago,there was an activity where we had to plan out simulated events like CCN day and stuff in 10 to 15 minutes. the worse was the last one.

our group had 6 people, and we were given the task of planning parent's night for about 400-500 people. in the first few minutes of planning, they got four of us to go out of the room, leaving the other 2 to plan. and every few minutes they alternate us, one go in, on come out. and the stressful part is when the new person comes in, the one still there had to explain to him/her what was planned so far, and by the time we finish we only have like literally 1 minute to get down to planning before they switch us. and we had to come up with a detailed plan within 15 minutes. killer...

but the reason why they made us go through it is because it was exactly what the two people in charge of this year's parent's night went through. by the last hour before the event actually started the venues for the places where the briefing of each course wasn't even confirmed and was continually changing. poor guys.

but this thing ain't all that bad, except for the fact that paintball was cancelled (sigh). i made a few new friends, and together we formed the rah-rah gang in there, shouting while playing games like tongkat. very interesting bunch of people, not to mention funny. the whole thing ended around 9, and the people who were still up for it went for dinner till 10, which would explain why i came home so late.

sigh. i don't wanna sound like some whiny emo kid, but sometimes i feel like i have two different sides. one is the happy, joking, always smiling one, and the other is the moody kind, making me inflict pain on myself just for the fun of it. don't panic, i'm not emo or suicidal, all i do is either dig my nails into my skin or start punching walls, nothing harmful like slashing my wrists. i know where's the limit. but sometimes some things can really tick me off, and it's always the same thing. may not be the same person(s), but it's the same thing. hate it.

ah well, will have to live with it.

12:34 AM
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