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Thursday, August 30, 2007


right now i'm blogging at downtown east. for a normal polytechnic student, this might not be much of a shock, as most schools are already having their holidays. i, however, do not come from a normal polytechnic school. i'm still in the middle of a new block, learning two modules. then why am i here at a chalet while i still have school? i don't know, impulse, i guess. just sortta last minute "chap in" with my cell group mates.

best friend's here too, and she's like the only girl. well, she gets her own bed, so i don't see her complaining. i got my own bed too, because i had to stay up and complete my assignment (fell asleep halfway not having done anything, woke up, and finished it in an hour. guess my mind thinks clearer with rest). this place rocks man, it's damn big. i would upload a pic but my phone doesn't like my computer, refuses to send the picture via bluetooth. so let me describe it.

there are two super single beds put side by side, and two other bed's that roll out from under, one from each side. so basically this equals to enough space for 5 people to sleep comfortably. well, at least i did, with the bed to myself.

8am, think i'm leaving for school soon. cya.

7:36 AM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Monday, August 27, 2007


hmm, i'm blogging from the desktop even though my laptop is on just like, 4m away from me. reason why i'm blogging here, because i saw something interesting on this computer. my bro got his hands on an age-character calculation thingy, and guess what? it's not online, but in microsoft excel! haha, damn cool, i tried it, quite accurate. i tried trwo other people i know, including bestfriend. wah, min's one is DAMN accurate. there's even a "!" beside the "loves travelling" decription. haha, wonder who came up with this thing, they had to survey quite alot of people. 365, in fact, maybe 366, multiplied by the different genders, ages, races, etc. those people either are damn professional, or have no life.. without further ado, i present to you my character according to that calculation.

* Loyal and generous
* Patriotic
* Active in games and interactions
* Impatient and hasty
* Ambitious
* Influential in organizations
* Fun to be with
* Loves to socialize
* Loves praises
* Loves attention
* Loves to be loved
* Honest and trustworthy
* Not pretending
* Short tempered
* Changing personality
* Not egoistic
* Takes high pride in oneself
* Hates restrictions
* Loves to joke
* Good sense of humor
* Logic

ok ok right? not too off huh. i'm no longer on my desktop, kena chase away by my bro, so i can't show anyone else's, but leave a tag, or msn me, and i can send the excel sheet to you. :)

11:09 PM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Wednesday, August 22, 2007


hmm, if by update, bestfriend mins means update the blog, then i think she's abit blog-deprived at the moment. i just updated like, 1 day before her tag. actually i posted on practically the same day she tagged, cos i posted at 11+pm. whatever.

anyways, the reason why i'm blogging more often now is... i have nothing else to do. random blogging is quite fun sometimes. you see how far you can go by shooting off random things and before you know it an extremely long post comes out. sometimes i wonder why people even bother to read after seeing how long the posts are.

don't think this will long though, i seriously have nothing to talk about. only reason why i'm online is cause i have an early class and im afraid i can't wake up. i reached home at like, 11 plus, so sleeping early was not an option. sighs. talked to someone online just now, funny how we managed to talk so long, and i didn't even feel anything. i used to get excited just to be able to talk, but now, even though that's like the longest conversation with mininum interruption in ages, i didn't feel much. just felt happy that we're talking again. hmm, still remember how i used to love the smile that would brighten up my day. it still does, but now i'm not gonna let it affect me negatively anymore.

damn tired ah. still got some notes i'm supposed to read but haven't touched. sigh. think i'll stop here.

3:01 AM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Monday, August 20, 2007


hmm, not much to say today. had a class at 9am in the morning, but i ponned it. some people maybe go "what the hell?! JY, the guy who never pon a single day of class, was only late for school not more than 3 times in secondary school, rarely or never ponned CCA or remedial, the JY we all know and love and hate and love to hate, ponned class?! well, welcome to my life.

so early sia. have a feeling this won't be the last time i pon this class, what's more, i live all the way in the west and study all the way in the east, meaning i have to wake up like 6.30 everyday for four weeks after being used to waking up only around 8.45 for a few months. some people say, "sleep in MRT lor, no big deal." go ahead, try sleeping when squeezing on board a train with thousands of other people, then when the crowd starts to thin, you can stand there and hope for people to leave the train so you can take their seats, only to be thwarted by that kiasu aunty who practically shoved her way through. the best that can happen is that when everyone alights at city hall or raffles place, then i can maybe find some seats, but hey, it's only like, what, 15 minutes? go any longer and i'll overshoot bedok.

went for the 3pm class, and those that went for the earlier class said i missed out alot. yeah, well, who cares, i'll catch up sooner or later. Digital Media Fundamentals. it's problem based learning, like RP, except we can't go online to check answers. jem made a comment about panic! at the disco, after which i did something stupid and we both laughed our asses off. it was like, so totally random, it just came to my head s plit second after he mentioned the band. hard to explain what i did, but i can show you if you ask me.

didn't really talk to or look that person in the eye for the whole day, and i don't think that person actually minds. in fact, i think that person feels totally fine about it. hmm, i'm not saying that i'm petty or stuff, but i feel that if someone doesn't like me, i shouldn't force my prescence on them, so if they want to talk and come to me i'll chat them up, but if they don't, well, i guess i'm alright if they're alright. but something interesting i noticed; it's amazing how some people can treat you like you don't exist, but only when you're upset do they ask you what's wrong. kinda weird, isn't it? hmmm...

went for SA meeting after class. damn super duper long. i was seated at one side, XX was seated at the other, and we didn't look at each other either. like i said just now, i'm alright if the other people are alright. only went over to the other side to talk with Raj and gang. we didn't even say bye, or hi, for that matter. ah well, it's time to forget any feelings i've ever had in the past.

met up with bestfriend after that. so so so so so so so so so sorry min, i made her wait for like, 1 hour plus for my meeting to end. she was still nice enough to accompany me to west mall to get a shirt changed. and guess what, there i bought a pair of jeans and a jacket! woots, that's like, 3 items down from the shirt/jeans/jacket/shoe list, although i wouldn't mind having that leather jacket from far east. it's not real leather, but its looks sure kick ass. now maybe i have to get a new belt, or just a buckle, and the rock star look will be complete. muahahaha. oh, some accessories too. haha, it's like a whole new wardrobe makeover. haha, well i guess people around me would say i had it coming. oh, i need new specs! i lost mine... and i also need to know how to style my hair properly. it's like, refusing to do my bidding. not that it ever completely listened, but now, it's like on strike or something. maybe i should wake up 1 hour earlier everyday, bathe, let the hair dry, then start styling, cause my hair will be flat otherwise. or maybe i should train myself to sleep on my belly, face down, hair facing the sky, and not pressed down.

la la la la, la la la la, JY's world....

11:54 PM
And through it all, the rise and fall...


no idea what i wanted to post, actually. just came here for the sake of coming here. joyce meyer service was great, i'm gonna live life to fullest, seize the moment, and love people more! haha.

hmm, the guy waaaayyy downstairs is trying to mess around with my mind. trying to make me think i'm not worth much. just like, a few minutes ago. for a while i entertained those thoughts, but then praise God, i remembered, i'm worth the life of the Son of God, i'm worth that much in God's eyes, so all these self-pitying thoughts, i rebuke you! haha, i found that when i blog prayers, and proclaim them, they seem more effective. hmm, well, this will be a prayer-blog then!

God, thanks for everyone, all my friends, even people i don't get along with, thanks for putting me where i am today, with the people i'm with. thanks for all the people with major influences all over my life, like a particular girl whose height i always make fun of. thanks for leading me through so many obstacles to where i am now. thanks for the many obstacles i know will come, but that i also know i will overcome them all with You. truly Lord, greaters is He who is in me than he who is the world. i thank you for all the blessings You poured down over my life, and all the other blessings that will continue to come. Lord, let me not worship worship itself, not worship the blessings, not worship the places of glory you've brought be to, but let me worship You, the Blesser, the Redeemer, the Name above all names. let me out You first in all my life, denying myself but picking up the cross and running after You. i will not be tied down by dark thoughts. i will not be tied down by circumstances. i will not be tied down by the one who only comes to steal, kill and destroy, but got, i will overcome them, because in You i have found strength, because You are my Source. thank You Lord, for everything, truly, thank You, for always being there, even though for the better part of my life i never knew it, but now that i do, i thank You for Your great love. i know that even if the world despises me, even if i have no friends, even if people forsake me, backstab me, lie to me, curse me, persecute me, i will always have a Friend, who will stand by me always, carry me on in times when my legs lose strength, in times when i have no will to carry on, all i have to do is reach out, and You will pull me through. thank you Jesus. today i don't ask for anything, be it need or want, but all i want to do is to thank You, and to praise You. truly Jesus, You are my life. thank you. Amen.

hmm, i think everyone should see this: http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ee73e63418003b47d7d5 it really shows what the true nature of God is like, how He created us to be in a constant relationship with Him, but because of the lures of the world, we have drifted away, causing Him great pain, and how He continually tries to draw us back to Him, but we ourselves don't care, being too caught up by the things of the world, to the point that it overwhelms us and we feel like giving up, but when we realise what's wrong we try to go back to Him, but are pinned down by the world, until He can't take it anymore and steps in to intercede for us, fighting everything we thought we could never overcome, greed, lust, self-mutilation, alcoholism, whatever, and setting us free from bondage. really, if our God is for us, then who can be against us?

hmm, maybe i will have turned off some readers by this point. mabe some of them have skipped all the way to the end, not wanting to hear what i have to say. if you have read all the way, i applaude you, but seriously, it doesn't matter whether you read or not. like i said in the post before, my God is a cool and hip Dude, who reads blogs. so this post, this blog, this blogger, this life, is dedicated to Him, and Him alone. Hallelujah.

12:25 AM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Saturday, August 18, 2007


man, just finished the last chocolate from the packet. had one earlier today, and yesterday, the day before... i can't resist chocolates. oh, in case you're wondering, the chocolate i ate comes in one packet, each covered by an aluminium foil, and it't not called hershey's. Mozart Kugeln, from Austria. don't ask me why i have it, but i just came home one day and went ooh, chocolate! there was another pack of another chocolate, inside we cherries dipped in alcohol, and i also was the one to eat the last chocolate. ok, this is entirely random.

Ideation is over! muahaha, away with that dumb module. no more M.O.I. (moaning over ideation)! and Year 1 of MOI (moving images) is almost over, just one more block! woots!

Clap your hands, all ye children (there's a clamour in the whispering tonight)

Adelaide~~~

haha, those are from songs by Anberlin. i was searching through the songs in my player, deciding what to delete, cause rachel added in alot of songs i don't listen to when i lent it to her, bestfriend also. so i delete, delete, delete, delete.. then ooh, Anberlin, maybe i should give it a try, since both gina and jasmine recommended it. not bad, i must say. does anyone have any of their songs? send me please, or lend me the album, except Cities, all the songs in my player are from Cities.

two days ago i stayed up 36 hours straight. ok, not exactly straight, i slept 15 minutes on the train to school and roughly 20 minutes on the way back. stupid Ideation, had to rush all the last minute work. but it was also my fault, i procrastinated till the last moment. haha. but then again, the people who did do the work also stayed up late, so you can see how much work there is. well, at least this module has given us quite alot of time to do stuff. next block the class are 9-12 and 3-6, so if we wanna do something i.e watch a movie, we have like 3 hours, or we have to watch at night. but hey, 4 more weeks and we're free! holidays~~~

i think i'm gonna try to start exercising more often now. went jogging on wednesday with bestfriend and jem. my stamina had never been good. haha, halfway through we detoured up the hill for some hantu-hunting, the only ghost we saw was bestfriend :p

alright, gonna end here, can't think of anything else to say.

oh, i think i'm cured from emo-ness. haha, gonna just avoid the source for the time being...

10:47 PM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Friday, August 17, 2007


i would like to bring the attention ofyou beloved readers to some things.

quote: Wednesday, 8th august, 2007 posting:

"but i'm broke!!! argh!!!! oh man, God, let manna drop from heaven and provide for my meals, so that i dont have to worry about them and have more to spend on movie ticket."

quote: Sunday, 12th august, 2007 posting:

"well, God has blessed me from all sides with cash! cold hard cash! ok, maybe except for the $300 my mom put in my account =D... total up, $550! woots, and i didn't even work a single day. "


what am i trying to say? my God is a prayer-answering God! truly, "ask, and you shall recieve." now, tell me, how often does it happen to you, that just four days after you proclaim a prayer to your god(s), they will answer you? i'm telling you, this is special grace from a special God! i only just realised that i had posted that 8th august post recently. that's kind of the reason for this post, to give thanks to God :)

wow, how many of you have god(s) that read your blogs? well, mine is sure one hip Dude. i remember a conversation i had with min a looonnnggg time back, about how Jesus will look like when He greets us in Heaven. i told her that maybe He'll be wearing lotsa baggy clothes, with bling-bling all over His body, and go "yo wassup bro, welcome to Heaven. I'm J to the C, Jesus Christ yo." that would be be cool, but somehow i don't think it'll turn out like that. haha.

alright, i gotta get started on my project work. due tomorrow! and i haven't done a large part of it! and i can't delay it anymore, because tomorrow is the last day for this module, and after that it's "bye bye alphie, hello new module"! ah!!!! rush! (ooh, jay chou is playing on my WMP...) alright world, see ya, and thank you God!

p.s. God, i won't mind having a new phone, preferably a SE one, maybe w850i, or cybershot k810i. just asking :)

1:38 AM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Sunday, August 12, 2007


ok , short post. i just wanted to testify of God's goodness.

my God is GOOD!!!! God is good, all the time, He put a song of praise, in this heart of mine~~~

ok, so what am i exactly singing about? well, God has blessed me from all sides with cash! cold hard cash! ok, maybe except for the $300 my mom put in my account =D

ok, first up, like i said, my mom just outta the blue deposited $300 into my account, because she thought there was too little left. then last week, i got the top in english award thingy at my old school. i didn't think much of it, all i got was a certificate and $30 Times bookstore voucher. but then just now my mom gave me a red packet. when i saw it i was thinking, hmm, this is either 7 months too late or 6 months too early. but she said it was from my grandma, when she heard about me winning the awards! $200!!! and, nothing exciting, i just got my allowance for the week! haha, total up, $550! woots, and i didn't even work a single day. muahaha... now i guess you should understand why i'm singing like mad.

God is good, all the time!
All the time, God is good!

thank you Lord, for this blessings, especially when i've been so down lately. not to mention i need a whole new wardrobe. shirts, jacket, pants, shoes... head to toe. muahaha, thank you Jesus! Jehovah Jireh, God is my Provider!

well, what can i say, praise the Lord!

9:29 PM
And through it all, the rise and fall...


heh, removed my last post. evaluated it, think it might be hurtful to some, so i removed it. don't think anyone saw it, it was posted at 1.38am, and removed 7.35am. think i sometimes do things too rashly. anyways, gonna go off to church now.bye

7:37 AM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Wednesday, August 08, 2007


gonna just post for the sake of posting because i have nothing to post about which would explain why i'm randomly posting because i have nothing exact or specific to post about so right now i'm gonna just let my fingers do the typing and totally disconnect my brain from my fingers to allow them to roam freely about the keyboard of my laptop so that i can form sentences that makes no sense yet at the same time is understandable and i just realised i haven't used a fullstop or a comma in this long paragraph although i think it can still be grammatically acceptable so i'm just gonna keep going for as long as i can because like i said i have nothing to talk about and i just paused for a long while because i was talking to some people online so here i am back to post some more crap and get this sentence or paragraph or whatever you call it to be as long as possible because i'm bored and have nothing else to do due to the fact that i'm lazy to do my assignments and tomorrow's a holiday and i'll be going out for a picnic to east coast park with w450 and i'm kinda looking forward to it except for the fact that right now i'm broke and have no ability to buy anything except for 3 mounting boards for my assignments.

sian, got bored of being bored. i must say, that is a long sentence.

oh man. 9.23pm. think i'm gonna just bathe and sleep by 10.30. haha. so many movies i wanna watch.

the bourne ultimatum
rush hour 3
harry potter 5

but i'm broke!!! argh!!!! oh man, God, let manna drop from heaven and provide for my meals, so that i dont have to worry about them and have more to spend on movie ticket. in the meantime, i have to occupy myself with my laptop. what i want for my laptop: more games, microsoft office, 2gb ram, nuclear fusion powered battery that can last forever (yea, i can fantasize, can't i?).

i have to really do my homework. just cause there's only one module this block doesn,t i can slack so much. but then again, if you look at it from my angle, if i don't slack now, when else can i slack?

i know, i'm randomly typing stuff. just so bored.

liking someone is so hard. especially when you don't know if that person likes you. i'm not implying anything, so don't jump to conclusions. just saying that from memory. i'm purging some of them so that i won't get so bored. best friend, where you go?

bugging you, is easy because you are buggable.... and bugging you, is the only thing i want to do.... lalalalala, lalalalala, lalalalalalalalala...

oh man just saw i cool ad on tv. three guys were in a tent somewhere in the middle of a mountain, then out of nowhere this guy rappels down a rope in front of the tent and passes them calsberg beer, before detaching himself from the rope, freefalling and opening a parachute. cool! haha.

jem and i are making some sort of "fighting video". right now we choreographed some parts of the fight, although it's still abit incomplete, cause we don't know how the fight started and how it will end.

alright, enough of the randomness. going off. see ya world.

8:26 PM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Tuesday, August 07, 2007


oh man, festival of praise was so much fun!!!! DELIRIOUS ROCKED!!!!! oh man, i love them! gonna borrow their album from weijian and listen to my heart's content!!! Don Moen, erm, nice, but not exactly my generation's type of music. but he still rocked with the violin! DELIRIOUS!!!!!! WHOOO!!!!!! hahaha, jumped like mad. and all the girls were like going gaga over martin smith, the lead singer. jessica was like "martin smith is mine!" i had to keep reminding her that he was twice her age, and married with 4 kids, to which she look at me from the sides of her eyes, "diao-ing" me.

oh man, all who missed it or couldn't make it, you missed out alot! the whole of the singapore indoor stadium was filled with jumping, screaming people going high over martin smith's singing. too bad, on the second day i had to go back to YISS for a stupid award ceremony, otherwise i would have gone that day too!! argh! the guy sitting on my right was also from City Harvest, and we were moaning together about how we had to miss one day of FOP for stupid long speeches by richard chew and the VIP, mrs forget-and-don't-care-about-her-name. not min though. she was seated right behind me (blame it on my bad luck), and kept pulling my hair, poking me, and taking my phone and playing the games inside to ease her boredom. haha, i said it like she was some kinda tyrant. *AHEM *WINK-WINK* AHEM*

pst. phil pringle's preaching (haha, 4 'P's in a row) was as entertaining as ever. i liked the message he had on the first day, about the tabernacle of david. that one was nice. too bad he didn't take offering message, or he would have used his favourite example, "betty the cow". hahahahaha.

weijian took pic with phil pringle! i'm so jealous!!! i went off earlier with min, yuan mei and clement cause we had free transport in the form of clement's dad. i should have went with weijian la... but nevermind, maybe next year for the next FOP he'll come and i'll be able to, and also maybe even get delirious' autographs =D

i sympathize with pst. zhuang though. when he gave the offering message on the last day he said "if you're writing a cheque please make it payable to City Harvest Church." everyone instantly went "oh..." he was supposed to say "Festival of Praise", since it's not just our church, but there's also another 127 churches taking part. pst. Kong was pointing an accusing finger at him, as though he was angry and wanted to scold him, but he was just kidding. haha, everyone in church just laughed it off.

next year, FOP, Singapore Indoor Stadium, 1st August. i'll be there. muahahahahahaha.

alright, i'll stop about FOP. watched the simpsons yesterday. SPIDER-PIG!!!! haha. watched it at night. before that, left house at 9am and went to school to help out my friend who was doing her project, before going for student ambassador meeting at 3, then at 4 plus helping betty with the touching up of her work (ok, more like watched her do it. too laxy to do anything. haha), before going home at 6, unloading, then leaving for west mall at 9, and watched the 9.20pm show with wj and sharon, and having dinner after the move at mac, before going home around 12. lol, busy huh? i really should cut back on my mac. i ate mac when i was queueing up at the SIS on sunday,then afterwards had dinner at mac that night, then last night had dinner with wj and sharon at mac, and now, guess what, i'm blogging from mac! haha. should cut down le.

hmm, think i'm gonna go play some games for awhile before my batt runs low. ciao.

9:09 AM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Wednesday, August 01, 2007


hmm, today was a great day! haha, had a great bible study toom learnt loads of things. just one immature guy that got me slightly irritated.

101st post, i need a new skin! haha, don't get me wrong, i love MCR, just that i feel having the same skin for so long, but tired of it. haha.

i'm not supposed to be blogging. i have work due on friday which i haven't really touched, and other people are now frantically rushing through it. so shoot me for not working hard. haha. just can't really get any motivation for doing this, it's like super pointless and uninteresting. ideation is crap! haha.

ooh, i watched just follow law the other day. it's not bad, quite funny. i like the security guard. haha. and the old lady in the movie went on about how she upgraded herself, learning computer and stuff, and she suddenly said she even has a blog, laozhabor.blogspot.com... wah, i laughed like siao man. i checked just now, it really exists! it's the blog of the old actress. she damn cute la. haha. she also linked jack neo, so i checked out his blog. the latest post was about his first album. haha. before that he was saying how his estate organised a durian gathering. he lives in HDB! haha, not that it's bad, but i thoguht someone like him would be in condo or semi-detached or something. haha, i think his neighbours are damn lucky. i wish i was his neighbour. in my course, with him as an aquaintance equals lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots of lobang. haha. well, at least i have a friend in J-team. can ask her help me. haha.

think i'm gonna turn in now. tomorrow after cell rush home and do project. this weekend, festival of praise!!! delirious coming to singapore! woots. and pastor phil pringle too! yea! haha, man they rock! this weekend's gonna be good!

11:14 PM
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