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Sunday, August 27, 2006


if i died right now, how many people would care?

if there was a funeral and i was the main attraction, how many people would even bother to turn up?

how many people's lives have i impacted? of these, how many are positive?

kinda makes you wonder, doesn't it? but by the time the answer becomes apparent, we wouldn't be around to find out for ourselves. so the only way we can make sure that people actually care about us is by making the most amount of impact upon others while we're still here, preferably positive impacts.

how many people have we hurt, without even knowing it? how many times have we said something, be it a joke or an angry insult, that scarred someone on the inside, and not even know it 'cause they do their best not to show it? how many times have we been selfish, and ignore people in their times of need, or betray the trust that others have placed in us?

"trust". i did some reflecting a dew days ago, and my conclusion is, i'm just not worthy enough to be trusted. after being told that i couldn't be trusted, then having someone say that i betrayed that person's trust, really make it obvious, doesn't it...

thus, i have come to a decision. i'll be nicer to everyone. i shall love my neighbour as myself. i'll try to start praising people more often (if you've realised, i hardly/never do that). i'll be more interested in other people's affairs if they choose to confide in me, and if i see someone i need i'll try to help. and most of all, i'll shut up about other people's personal stuff. let's hope i can do that...

7:15 PM
And through it all, the rise and fall...