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Thursday, June 15, 2006


bio remedial was cancelled today...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mrs chuah should at least have told us that it was cancelled!! what the heck is the relay system for anyway, some kinda joke?! granted, i was 30minutes late for remedial, but still!!!!!!!

however, it seems this is kinda God's plan, cause my finger's been getting worse lately. so when i heard it was cancelled i phoned my dad and got him to bring me to the polyclinic :)

my number was 2180, room 54, second floor. time just flew past for me... probably cause i was playing soccer on my phone (man utd, 4 seasons , won every single match, 90% of which leading by 3 or more goals...wahahaha). my dad was beside me, occasionally saying "wa, zhe me jiu ah?" (translated: wa, so long ah?) and my reply would be "polyclinic ma..."

medicine was kinda cheap compared to private practioners'. 8 bucks plus. but it was still more then my dad's estimate of 3 bucks.... dot dot dot...

i had this scary experience last night/this morning

as some of you a.k.a. the people who went to sentosa for min's bday would know, im claustrophobic, meaning i'm terrified of enclosed spaces. actually, its not so much the enclosed space than the inability to move that scares me. this started from an experiences when i was like 10 years old, so you see how much this affects me to last this long.

ok, back to the story. has anyone had this experience where you are like half awake? like, your mind is totally awake, but your body just won't move, as if the part of your brain controlling voluntary actions is still resting. i had this kinda experience since sec 3, but so far i only remember it happening not more than 4 times. the first time it happened i was scared like crap.i could swear i almost cried. its like, my eyelids were closed, and when i tried to open them i couldn't. that was when i started panicking.

so then i tried my fingers. i was like "c'mon, MOVE!!" but it stayed stationary. it was only about one minute later before it started to move abit, then finally, when my brain was fully awake, i clenched my fist. that was scary.

but what was so weird yesterday was that when it happened there was like thios strong prescence there. my ears were blocked, as if i was in an airplane experiencing high pressure, and it was like, block, unblock, block, unblock, VOOOOM vooom VOOOOM vooom... and my eyes were like partially open, and they were staring at this part of the ceiling, above the door, and there was like this small card or paper wrapped in plastic hanging there, and the crackling sound from the plastic as it swayed in the wind was quite audible. so i tried to say out "He who is in me is stronger than he who is of this world!" but my mind was racing, so i tried to say the word "Christ", but all i could manage was a "K...k....Chr..." it so freaking scary man, i felt as if the devil was there, and i couldn't move, so more than feeling claustrophobic, i felt helpless, making it 10 times worse. but slowly i gained control of my boday, managed to say the phrase out, and immediately everything stopped. PRAISE THE LORD.

aftet that i jus laid on my bed, and when i looked at where the "paper" was, there was only the white paint of the ceiling. that was scary.

for me, with my bad memory, i would probably have like 50 nightmares a day and not remember anything about them after i wake up, but this was different, seeing as how i was fully aware of the situation when i happened. BUT, because of my nature, i've completely shook off the experience :)

ciao

3:09 PM
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