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Wednesday, February 28, 2007


i ahte the feeling of being left out.

be it of conversations, outings, gatherings, or even some small, simple matter. i just hate that feeling.

yeah, you might say it's my problem for getting left out in the first place, but i never said i blamed anybody except myself. all i'm saying is, i just hate that feeling.

being left out twice now out of something that's supposed to be a "friends" thing, i just feel as if... nevermind. you'll probably say that it's my fault again for not joining in more. as if i needed any of that.

being alone is a weird situation to be in. when you're walking with a group of friends, and you're left at the back, walking alone, with no one to talk to, you feel as if everyone can't be bothered to talk to you. when someone actually starts talking to you, sometimes you can't wait for that person to shut up, so you can enjoy the peace of being alone. like i said, weird. at least for me.

it's not as if i love the fact that i'm anti-social, just that sometimes it's better if i'm left alone. guess it depends on the situation. but the side effect is that now, i'm used to being left alone, and that kinda sucks.

and right not, you're probably thinking this is just another emo post by another person too emo for their own good, and ignore the contents. like i care.

like i said, i'm used to it.

7:26 PM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Friday, February 23, 2007


yea, gonna leave delifrance on sunday! woohoo!!!

but so sad, gotta miss a service cause my whole extended family is celebrating my grandfather's birthday on saturday night, and have to work on sunday morning. haven't missed a week's service in one whole year. so sad...

but once i go through those glass doors on sunday, i'm free! zilah gonna leave one week after me, and kinah a week after her. she's so bitter that everyone's leaving before her. haha, sorry...

haven't blogged in quite a while, so gonna start on tuesday.

went out to the void deck beside YI with zilah, james, yuting, sharon, kok and fiez. played badminton and skated (more like rolling along on james'/fiez's/kok's board. i am so bad at skateboarding...). didn't play basketball with the rest though. i may be bad but skateboarding is still fun.

well, we started out the day waiting at the badminton court. james was with me, zilah and yuting went to zilah's house to get rackets and the rest had yet to arrive. so there i was, sitting on the umpire's chair, withjames below me playing tennis on my phone, when umesh's brother came up to us and said "hello i'm diva!"

ok, what he actually said was "can i play badminton with you?"

james and i refused, and he just kept pestering us, but we stood our ground. and so he kept pestering us, all the way till sharon arrived, then when she too refused, he continued on, so sharon picked up my racket with the intention of thrashing him and getting him to leave. the wind was on nobody's side, as it turned out, so most of the shots from both ends ended up unreturned, though sharon beat him in the end.

halfway through, kok and fiez arrived on skateboards, so after sharon beat the guy, and the little diva still refused to leave, kok decided took my racket from sharon. don't know who won, though i can't say any side did better than the other.

kok abandoned the game halfway through and passed the racket to me (never could hang on to anything, that guy. haha kidding). i wouldn't say i did very well, cause, once again, the wind interfered. but in the end i still beat him, and after losing so many times and with the numbers obviously against him, he had no choice but to leave. he still walk around the area, though. i think at one point he touched james' board and he screamed at him. the nerve of that guy. he was barely above my elbow, and still dared to come up to us. not that i'm saying that we are some rude gangsters or anything, but it's obvious that people of his and our age don't mix. ah well, divas will always be divas (fyi: for those who have no idea what i mean by "diva" it's an inside joke with all the 4e2-ers, so don't mind it).

nothing eventful happened after that. ate, skateboard, slacked. we talked about many things, from things that happened in the past 2 years we were together to the "classic" actions of a select few, most notably edward chiang, who, unfortunately, could not join us that day. don't worry, though, it's nothing negative. an example would be how he used to smile even when barnwell was scolding him.

after that, we all went home. bade zilah goodbye, then left james and fiez at the bus stop, before kok went seperate ways with us while we walked to the interchange. went over to pastamania, said hi to meihui, with me insulting her cleaning, and left for home after that.

worked 3-11 on both wednesday and thursday, and gonna work 5-11 on friday, which is today, rest on saturday, morning shift on sunday and after that, i'm done! woohoo! praise the Lord! just hope what i earned is enough for A&B...

ah well, maybe gonna go eat that chicken spaghetti my parents bought for me for "dinner".

i've decided not to say cya at the end of posts anymore, cause i think it's kind of lame, albeit a convenient way to sign off without saying much.

gonna just leave this post hanging...

1:42 AM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Monday, February 19, 2007


yesterday was cny. spent it going to first maternal grandma's house for lunch, then paternal aunty's house for dinner. collected a few ang paos, yada yada yada, met my cousins, same old, same old. not so excited this year. guess it just wears off..

and guess what? i got a new phone! woot! not k610i though, but i got k800i, the cybershot phone! muahaha... told sharon about it, and at first she didn't reply, so i thought she was angry at me for getting that phone or something. haha. i got the brown one though. hers is black. the phone is like, so cool. at first i was apprehensive about getting sony ericsson phones, cause it thought nokia was more user-friendly. after getting this phone, however, it's so cool that all other flaws are easily overlooked. besides, it's not that bad. almost the same as nokia. only thing i have to get used to is the messaging system. ah well, i'll get the hang of it sooner or later. so message me, alot. i need to practice.

to my knowledge, i'm the third person among my friends to buy that phone, although only 2 of us actually have possession of it for more than a day :p

today's my mum's birthday. after reading nani's blog, i found out that it's also mrs B's birthday, so, not that she'll ever read this blog, but just in case, happy birthday! don't spend the whole day playing WoW!

so, woke up at around 12 plus, went to west mall mayim for lunch, and afterwards, nothing else to do, so came over to my aunt's house, where my grandparents are. still here, nothing else to do, chatting with yuting and nani.

cya

4:16 PM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Saturday, February 17, 2007


CNY in 21 hours 23 minutes. not that excited. guess the childish side of me is beginning to die away...

right.

gonna (probably) get my new phone later, as in, 8 hours later. sony ericsson k610i. 2mp, although after looking at my friend's phone of the same model, it isn't that great. but, best thing about it, it is

FREE...FREE...FREE...FREE...FREE...

yea, my plan expired, so they SAY i get this phone for FREE... not sure if there are any strings attached though.. hmmm...

nothing else to say...

life is so boring now..

cya

2:37 AM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Wednesday, February 14, 2007


25 more minutes to the end of valentine's day. spent the day at home in front of the com after waking up late (having breakfast at 3.30pm. ahhh...) because i'm so pathetic no one likes me i have decided to do so. i spent the last valentine's day watching a movie with, wait for it, wj. no, i'm not gay, just that it was one of the only few days we were free, and huo yuan jia was showing, so...

it's so boring nowadays, with most people working and not coming online, but now, after we got our results, more people should be quitting soon. including me. i'm gonna ask the manager to let me resign on the 25th on friday, when i see her.

after that, freedom! maybe gonna go spite those who are still working by "visiting" them and talking loudly about plans to watch movies or whatever.

went to get my new year's clothes on monday with my mom. mym mom actually bought me a pair of levi's jeans. i'm a fashion idiot, so i don't know if it looks nice, but all i know is, it's veeeerryyy comfortable. got another pair of jeans, a long sleeved shirt, and some other clothes, can't remember what. and guess what, i finally got my earphones! those that you plug into your ear and instantly, peace... blocks out most of the sounds outside, except those that are really near. even then, it's still muffled.

can't think of anything else to blog about. ah well. going off now...

cya

11:35 PM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Monday, February 12, 2007


i know, many people have already blogged about their results. why haven't i? well, my bro came back from NS for 2 days, and its not as if i can say "scram, you can use it next week."

well, my results were, unexpected, to say the least. for english, didnt really expect it though, seeing as i got b4 for prelims. i won't say how i did, lest another person says i'm proud, but let's just say i didn't hit bottom 3 :)

maths, a2, also unexpected. i thought i flunked it actually, messed up some really meaty questions which gives a lot of marks. must have gotten many right answers in the simple ones...

and the best news, i didn't fail anything! got c6 for chem. compared to being 2nd in class for mid-years, i think i can totally understand mr wong's desire to plunge the scissors in his hands into my guts. but at least i didn't raise my hands up in victory shouting "yea, i got f9 for chem!", unlike SOMEONE.

well, with an L1R4 of 16, i'd say its a major improvement from the high 20s during prelims. God is great.

well, guess it's time to choose my destination for the next 3 years.

cya

2:50 PM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Thursday, February 08, 2007


hmm, 4pm now, 21hours and 30minutes to go. ah well, so what.

yea, i know, i'm probably the only one that's not worried about his results, but i was kinda raised this way. well, ok, not raised, i just turned out like that.

i don't know why, but i'm oddly calm, maybe it's God, i don't know.

gonna cut my hair later. don't know whether it's a good thing or a bad thing. took me quite long to grow it to this length, getting kinda attached to it. ah well, it's getting heavy anyways.

got my pay, like finally. and guess what, remember i forecasted approximately $450, after the cpf cut? well, guess what, even after the cpf, i still get $538! woot! praise the Lord!

anyways, got "prison break series one" from zilah, who got it from dan, last night. spent the better part of the wee hours of the morning trnasferring everything to my zenny. 22 episodes. now my player is left with like, 8gb. quite alot, considering i don't put many songs in, and thats it was originally 30gb. well, 28.4...gb, actually. the other 1.6gb probably went to all the functions for zenny, though i doubt it actually needs that much.. well, took me a few hours to do it all, but i was also distracted cause i was watching and transferring at the same time. but don't worry, i won't go overboard with prison break like i did with MCR, though that was just an excuse to slip in their name.

just got Ghost of You and I'm Not Okay (I Promise) from zilah, still got Helena left. if anybody has the album "Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge", PLEASE lend it to me. thanks.

i'm not okaaaaaaaay....

cya

4:01 PM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Tuesday, February 06, 2007


i'm kinda serious now.

if anyone else disses MCR i'm gonna get mad, whether they're joking or not. to give and idea of my fanatism with them, i watched "life on the murder scene", a compilation of their live performances, music videos, making of music videos and video dairy, for 4 straight hours. all the way till 5am.

you gotta love MCR for their lyrics. who else can come up with something like:

mama we all go to hell
mama we all go to hell
it's really quite pleasant except for the smell
mama we all go to hell

not that i have thoughts of going to hell. heck no. just that the way they sang it, i was laughing out when i heard it. but seriously, their lyrics aren't some random stuff put together, but they actually have meaning in them.

famous last words is quite powerful, seeing as it was written in one of the darkest times of the band members, and overall, the whole band's, lives. so yea, GO LISTEN.

their vids are nice too. take welcome to the black parade for example. it's about a dying man, whose father brought him to see a marching band when he was young, and that left a deep impression on him, so much so that when he dies, his impression of death is of a marching band coming towards him. go watch the vid. NOW

so anyways, results this fridays. lifting everything to God, trusting Him, and even if it doesn't work out well, gonna continue trusting Him for the future. He's blessed me with so much already, i don't see why it would be any different in future. yea, bad things happen to good people, but God always makes sure there's a door out, although it won't be the back door, if you get what i mean.

so here's to God, i thank you for everything, for my results, and also for My Chemical Romance. praise Him!

cya

11:33 AM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Monday, February 05, 2007


i'm going crazy over MCR.

bought their album today, The Black Parade. ROCKS!!! (regardless of what you say, james). and now i "chanced" upon their main site, and "happened" to look at their merchandise, and i saw two hoodies that i fell in love in immediately. seeing as i know most of you here won't even bother to go look at it if i posted the link here because all of you are too freaking lazy and SOME people have no interest in MCR, i took the liberty to post the pics up myself. so thank me.




cool, aren't they. the DEAD! one looked quite good, but for some reason the pic came out messed up. ah well. wish i could get it, or even better, BOTH of it. only problem is, they cost $35... US dollars, that is. and also shipping fee costs i don't know how much, so, there's little chance of me getting them. anyone willing to get me a super early birthday present? i wouldn't mind!

so yea, the whole post's about MCR. so what :P

cya


12:42 AM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Saturday, February 03, 2007


this is my 50th post. woohoo!!

and i remeber how it began, with sharon helping to do literally everything, since i didn't have a clue about html codes then.

and now, 49 posts later, sharon has also helped me changed the skin, and once again, she did literally everything, cause i still have no clue about html codes.

she also changed her blogskin, so check it out, although you probably would have already. her blog is so popular, even i check hers before i check mine for tagbox updates.
so, here's a heartfelt thanks to my dear friend sharon, who, after she finished everything, and after i had the cheek to ask her to tweak the cbox, replied two words.

freak you.

ah, gonna miss her. hope we go to the same poly or something, along with everyone else. those people should know who they are. haha, except si qian though, cause there's absolutely no chance that i'm going jc, and maybe even less chance of her going to poly... haha, but still, hope for the best, yea?

so the theme for my blog now is, obviously, my new obsession, my current favourite band, my one and only, my chemical romance.

go check out their videos, especially welcome to the black parade and (woot!)famous last words. love the way gerard looks so emo in FML.

i don't know about you, but i think gerard looks super cool (kick me, punch me, burn me, anything, but i'll never say he, or any other male, is hot) with the blond hair. his previous hair was like paul twohill's, or should i say, paul twohill ripped him off, cause he looks good in it, while paul twohill sucks eternally, with super shiny teeth.



i smell "rip-off" here... sorry i couldn't find a more similar picture. twohill's so pathetic, a picture search for him under yahoo brings up 3 results.

so, yea, 50 posts. woohoo!

nothing else to blog about at the moment, so..

cya


1:50 AM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Friday, February 02, 2007


gonna post for the sake of posting.

i officially have a new favourite band - my chemical romance

gotta love their songs, although i only heard a few so far, through youtube.

it's 2.51 now, so i spent like, what, the past, 2, 3 hours looking at their vids?

yea, that's how much i like them now. and because of gerard, i might even consider dying my hair blong and cutting it short.

yea, right.

for the "famous last words" video, bob, the drummer, actually got 3rd degree burns on his legs, and gerard, the vocalist, tore his ligament or something. talk about bad luck. and apparently, they had spent about 2 hours straight filming the video again and again, before the director decided to do it all over again, and burn every prop. talk about cool.

ah well, going back to watching them now.

cya

2:50 AM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Thursday, February 01, 2007


watched ghost tunnel on tuesday. with me was wj, james, meihui and zilah.

the movie was ok i guess, largely thanks to the SUPER KAWAII FEMALE LEAD which i don;t have any clue what's her name. ah well.

i thought the movie was in thai or something, since i really didn't do that much reading up on it. just decided to tag along for the movie. alas, the movie was from japan, and that would explain the
SUPER KAWAII FEMALE LEAD.

it was nice hanging out with friends, but in the end, we had to go our separate ways (sounds so korean drama-ish). i went to holland v with zilah and wj, went past delifrance, where zilah sneaked off with a chocolate eclair, thanks to sean. if it was any other person at the counter, maybe accept for ridzuan, i doubt she'll be able to get away without paying for it. so we walked around, went to the coffeeshop and bought lunch, if you could actually call it lunch. wj made the comment of the day: "i come all the way to holland v just to buy eggs." fyi, he bought half boiled eggs.

at around 4.40, l left the both of them for work, which was five minutes walk away from the coffeeshop. the toilet is so cramped, by the time i finished changing, it was just about time to start work.

burned my hand during closing while i was cleaning the fryer. used a pair of tongs to hold the cloth while i was cleaning it, then all of a sudden the tongs slipped into the oil, taking my hand with it. left with a red mark on my right hand now, just hope it won't leave a scar.

didn't work yesterday, went out to play pool with wj, edward, umesh, fiez and yuting, before meeting zilah and dan to go to madjack's, where kok and memah worked. looked at the pics in wj's cam, and when i saw how everyone was getting together and me being unable to join them, got sad and gloomy for awhile. i know with people like sharon working a 11 hour shift, and the rest of the week with a schedule pretty much similar to mine, i'm not one to complain, but i guess i'm just someones who needs the company of friends.

so, in conclusion, thailand sucks (i know, random). well, their soccer team, that is. yea, sure, they kick the heck out of balls, but they just don't have sportsmanship. i mean, its just a penalty that decides whetehr you win the ASEAN cup or not, no big deal, nothing to get the whole team to walkout of the pitch, causing the penalty to be taken 15 minutes late. guess they just had no confidence in their goalkeeper, which i guess was well based, seeing how he was helpless to stop the ball from going into the net. ah well, just hope the whole of the singapore team, the coach, the manager and basically, any singaporean going to thailand for the second leg of the match, won't get killed by protesters.

3.37, have to get ready to go to work. next time i'm not working is saturday, and winnie's gonna teach me how to give bs! woot! haha.. till then...

cya

3:15 PM
And through it all, the rise and fall...