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Wednesday, November 29, 2006


3.21 a.m.

why am i still blogging?

answer: i have nothing better to do.

was watching Death Note movie on youtube (yes, it is on youtube, split into 12 parts. searcg under death note movie english). after that i read the online manga, until chapter 7, before skipping right to the end. for those who don't know it, warning, spoiler ahead.

KIRA LOST, WAS SHOT BY MATSUDA.

oops, you read it. don't blame me, no one asked you to read it.

i am seriously rotting at home now. playing computer games just isn't fun anymore. going online isn't too, since your friends are all either busy working or going out.

i. need. a. freaking. job.

went to vivo today to go job hunting with mesh. no luck though.

who got lobang can intro me anot? not fast food restaurant, maybe some clothes store or something, maybe even admin work. but there's still a slight problem of me STILL BEING 15... it's like every single company refuse to get 15 year olds. i mean, hello, i'm gonna be 16 in 2 weeks! give me a break! (to the chairman of the ministry if manpower, yes, i am talking to you.)

so what can i do these days? go out, watch tv, play computer, eat, sleep, rot. kinda feel like L. the sad thing is, this is the kind of "dream life" students want to have. not much of a dream now, is it.

sigh, gonna go sleep now. "why only now" you ask? who knows. maybe i won't even sleep, keep on playing. haha. sorry to bore you with this post. my mind isn't exactly working now...

ciao

3:21 AM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Friday, November 24, 2006


friendship is a fickle thing, ain't it.

how do you actually define friendship?

one moment it could be all nice, hanging out with your friends, joking, reminiscing about the past, poking fun at each other...

the next moment, you'll be left out of every single freaking thing.

gatherings, movies, trips to the beach, or even things like going to work or school together. occasionally you get the invite, or maybe one of them feels bored, and the other's aren't around, so you get to be the "lucky" stand in.

this isn't true friendship at all.

these days, people use the term "best friend" too easily. they think that if they are closest to that person, that person is their best friend. notice that it's "friend" and not "friends". you can only have one best friend, and you must also be certain that you are also that person's best friend. at least that's how i define it.

i haven't had a best friend in a long time, like, 2 years. all my close friends probably already have their best pals, and it isn't exactly polite to ask someone face to face if he/she is your best friend. but not having one isn't such abad thing. i still have a friend whom i can talk to on the phone for a long time, share our experiences without fear of it being discussed with other people. that person probably know's who he/she/it is (i was kidding about the "it"). honestly to tell the truth that person is the one i'm closest to. but, he/she already has his/her best friend, so, ah well...

hmm, overall my post seems pretty negative, huh. but it's really up to those who read it to decipher if i really am pissed about something, if anything at all. if you don't know what i mean, then just ignore everything and take this as a lesson on choosing friends. for those who do know what i mean, well, i don't really have to say anything, would i?

let's just say that the "group" only had 3 members to begin with. ciao.

9:35 PM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Friday, November 17, 2006


FREE AT LAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rejoice, the 'O' levels has ended.

well, at least for the class of 4e1 and 2. the rest still have other exams (AHAHAHAHA!!!TOO BAD!!!).

and now, i officially have free reign over the com, because my bro also finished his 'A' levels, so my parents have no reason to confiscate the monitor power cable now.

well, it's been a long amazing race. reaching pitstop after pitstop, trying u figure out clues that made us stay up till late at night (for some people) and doing our best to overcome every leg of the race. we had to take a few detours, choose which subject to learn, and sometimes we chose correct, sometimes we chose wrong. and if you've never watched "The Amazing Race" before, you would have no idea what the heck i'm talking about.

who cares, as long as i understand them 10 years later, while reading this post again...

The Amazing Race. i used to think it was The Amazon Race (call it TAR) when i first heard it, and imagine my surprise when i saw a bunch of ang mohs running through concrete jungles. and by the way, they're gonna have an asian version of TAR, where this singaporean guy, the one who went on Fear Factor and lost, is the judge. it's gonna suck, like every ang moh show rip off...

4 years in the school. i suppose i can't say i wasted my life there. met many new friends, but it was those i met from sec 3 onwards or those (like kok) who stayed with me throughout the whole 4 years that mattered more to me. first, i met the new people, who would eventually become the 4e2 family, joined IT Club (just an anecdote. i joined 4 different CCAs before settling here. sec 1 join robotics club, sec 2 quit and join band and youth flying club with kheng yeow, sec 3 quit everything join IT Club where i became an exco in half a year :p ), got closer to the people of the 4e2 family, got closer to si qian (president of IT), went to cell group bbq after sq invited me, and next day went to church where i accepted Christ. that was the whole of my sec 3 life, super-summarised.

nothing much happened in sec 4, it just passed by so quickly. turn one eye (chinese proverb, "yi zhuan yan". same meaning as in a blink of an eye) and i graduated. turn the other eye and o levels are over. see what i mean? whole year full of remedials.

anyway, today's history paper was a killer. mr goh is so dead man, i tell you. he predicted japan and cold war to come out, and he was so confident about it, so most people chose japan, as it was something they knew for a long time. in the end, cold war, league of nations and treaty of versailles (if you don't know what i'm talking about, you're lucky. didn't have to learn about things and people with names like gorbachev). good thing i studied cold war, but the second part of the question i had no idea how to do, so i just wrote "i agree to a large extent that..." plus one or two lines of crap. hope they give me one or two marks. totally didn't expect a question like that to come out. so, like i said, mr goh has so got to die.

anyway, history's history, along with all the other subjects, and hopefully mr goh too (haha, i was joking about the whole mr goh dying thing, f.y.i.). for now, it's dream life for a while, before i find a job.

so i guess it's goodbye for now to everyone, till we meet again in february next year! unless of course you happen to go to mr wee's bbq, in which case is goodbye till tomorrow.

sigh, gonna lose a sms and phone chat partner for five whole days...

anyway, zenny (my zen vision:m) is dead. only can be turned on if you charge it. for some reason it is low on power, yet cannot be charged. weird...

well, i've been blogging for so long already, so i'm gonna stop and play a game or something. after all, what are holidays for? ciao.

9:17 PM
And through it all, the rise and fall...

Friday, November 10, 2006


a check tells me that the last time i posted was 13 october. so maybe i should come back in 3 days time to make it a full month... but then again i already typed 35 (not counting "34". yea, i counted) words, so might as well continue.

in a month, quite a few things happened. not gonna post it all here cause i can't remember most of it. i'm going through the o's (4 more papers left, woot!), lacking sleep, watching tv, studying (not alot.. haha, s.q. gonna scold me)... but, this is the first time in online in a loooonngg time though. so, what's my secret of staying off the com? have your brother play almost 24/7 during his 'A' level period, so that your parents will confiscate the monitor's power cable. may have to do this a few times, though. chances are your parents may become soft-hearted after some begging.

it's amazing, without studying so much, i was able to recall many many things during the o's. not saying i'm smart or anything, but i managed to remember things i didn't know i remembered. take geography for example. i would have been happy with just a pass, but i managed to write till my hand hurt (core geog, mind you)! been satisfied with my papers so far, except the practical papers (both subjects) and today's math paper 2. 14 marks gone, just like that. and 5 makrs i could have done. iwas staring at the trigo question, trying to figure out. then, it hit me, like a voice that was whispered into my ear, soft, delicate, saying, "just freaking use the sine rule, idiot." when i heard that, i eyes widened i literally said to myself, "alright, let's go" and lowered my pen, until i heard the words that i still hear clearly now: "The exam is over, please stop writing."

ARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nevermind, let's hope my paper 1 can save me... God help me...

kok's birthday today, by the way. the guys planned to "hamburger" him after the math paper ended, but when they managed to bring him down, no one wanted to go on top of him first. i don't know if he's well liked or if the guys just don't want to be the one second nearest to the bottom of a human pile-up, but in the end we let him go. but i left early, so i'm not sure what, if anything, happened next.

wanted to post up some pics i took while studying through the night for ss, but when i looked at them, decided not to... anyways, ciao.

7:41 PM
And through it all, the rise and fall...